1. Document the sleep deprived quotations.
2. Ever in Ames, Iowa? Eat at Jeff's Pizza.
3. Go. You won't regret it.
4. Salsa Doritos are actually kind of good.
Megan here, better late than never right? I promise I'll post next Wednesday.
Sadly, the title seemed to be my inner mantra for the last two weeks. It knew I was in for a marathon with MBLGTACC alone, but then my family emergency popped up as well as a few other things I didn't account for. I felt completely and utterly overwhelmed. To give you an idea, I spent 19 hours in a vehicle over a span of 5 days and during those 5 days, I went a 72 hour stint with 11 total hours of sleep. It was really rough and I kind of got a little bit goofy on the ride back. MBLGTACC was incredible though and feel free to ask us about it. It was a life changing experience as someone put it in our meeting yesterday, and I really really hope to be able to make next year's conference in Michigan.
I guess I learned a lot over the last week. Sure, some things I didn't want to know, but it happens. I was just stressed over going home and having to finally come to terms with another death in the family. There's been 4 since winter break started. Plus the funeral was on Valentine's Day which I already associate with negative connotations having nothing to do with over-commercialization or my currently single status. So yeah, it was rough, especially with living out of a suitcase and missing classes and whatnot.
Things are rough sometimes, and sometimes they're utterly overwhelming and difficult, but they do get better. I got back to campus on Tuesday night after white knuckling it through a snow storm to get here. Yay for 30 mph on the interstate! (I digress) and so yesterday was my first full day back and I was so happy to just have familiarity and routine again. Yesterday felt great for me. I felt genuinely good and not stressed out. Things definitely felt better, and I feel better in general. It just goes to show that while things may be stressful, they can also be good at the same time. MBLGTACC opened my eyes to a lot of things, plus I bonded with a lot of amazing people. I learned, I laughed, I cried, and I experienced solidarity like I've never felt before. Sure I was stressed when I got back over having to go home, but home was exactly where I needed to be and I'm glad I went back. I would have regretted it if I hadn't, and I really needed the closure.
Feeling overwhelmed and like you can't handle things as they currently are, much less when an emergency arises, is scary; that's what friends are for. Reach out and let someone else support you until things stabilize, and then you can get back to normal. Things will ease up, and they will get better.
Trust in other people as well as yourself. You're going to be just fine.
Have a great week and hug someone you love.
-Megan
You're right. Salsa Doritos are kind of good. I really loved what you said about my dad at the funeral service. For winging it, you were relaxed, comfortable, poignant, and funny. I was so glad to have you there.
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